Roll, Play
11/29/24
Some roll the dice and
Become a hero because
Badguys need to die
But.
The swordplay's easy
Let me hear your monolgue
You fucking coward
Invisible Walls
Don't live here; let go
For just a second
A Poem About The "C" Word
7/15/2023
The colonial architects
Grip the earth by her throat
Still.
Proud child of the soil
Her blood in your veins
Her salt in your hair
Her heartbeat in your waist
We are hers through and through.
So Why then, are we surprised by
The venom of her affliction
Seeping from familiar lips?
Child of Wonder,
The porcelain chains must shatter
One's full strength is required for the healing of Pachamama’s vessel
And to be whole
The colonies must burn
Mah-Mah and the Dog
7/27/2024
Mah-Mah and the Dog
They say Ronald Webster could turn into a fukken dahg ehno
I want to tell you about the day white men with fully automatic guns came to kill my great uncle
My grandmother cousin
A militant uprising, they called it.
In truth, it was an island full of fisherman and goat farmers answering years of abuse peacefully.
The boldest of them put colonial overseers and intermediaries on a boat back to St. Kitts
Zero reported casualties. So naturally, british battleships and marines were the next logical step
A sniper was posted on the school building above the sea rocks
Not a hundred feet from the house I'd grow up in some 30 years later.
They were looking for the infamous ringleader: a Mr Webster.
Myyy grandmother cousin.
The school children them say Ronald Webster could turn into a fukken dahg ehno.
And as the story go,
My grandmother wake hu cousin, tell him paratroopers coming–
The boat in the harbour already
Ronald say, das our boat in the bay
Granny say fuck our boat, it's the British, wake yuh ass
It continues on to detail how he ringleader of the 1967 Anguilla Revolution, Anguilla's first democratically elected prime minister, James Ronald Webster,
MYYYY grandmother cousin,
Run in the bush naked and disappear for 40 days and 40 nights, and the british couldn't find him before they leave.
He family couldn't find him eida, but das ok.
Eventually he come back.
But if I think about it, this story is not actually about Ronald Webster
Or the Anguilla revolution
Or the People's progressive party
I want to talk about Virginia Webster
MY grandmother that raise a dozen children in a single room house.
Who left my crying infant brother outside overnight to hush
Who give me blows for things that wasn't my fault
Who could manage and butcher her goats well into her 60s
Who wouldn't let a single person walk by the house without offering them a johnny cake
Who sat with me in a bathtub as hurricane Louis took our roof and all our earthly possessions
Who made the BEST macaroni and cheese
Who sit me in a metal pan, scrub me down with aloe, and make me eat some. Every. Weekend.
Who died before I could truly meet her in this life
Who isn't even a footnote in the documented story
Of the political assassination that she singlehandedly prevented
An ACTUALLY - Dis a prayer of thanks
To the heroes of revolution that didn't get a plaque or dedication
No books, no citation
The sisters and brothers
Fathers and mothers
Daughters and sons
The theys and thems
That helped carry us this far
And those here right now
The perfectly imperfect
Beautifully flawed
Humans
Carrying the movement ontoppa they head
Although they cannot, in fact
Tun into a fukken dahg
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Oh, Dragon
January 10th, 2020
Oh Dragon, with scales that smell of Cedar
I bow before you.
Or I would.
If not for the bindings I find about my hands, my feet, my neck.
Oh Dragon, with spine of oak and iron
I beg for your mercy.
Or I would.
If I believed you shared my tongue or heart. Your servants do not.
Oh Dragon, with great white wings
I wonder why you swim and choose not to fly.
Or I would.
The air in your belly is too heavy to ponder such things; too thick with the suffering of my brothers
Oh Dragon, master of the horizon and great sea,
I offer you a song and dance of praise each day.
Or I would.
But the ones that serve you allow it -no, demand it- but once a week.
Oh Dragon, whose blood runs black and thick like tar,
I hear your groans echoing well into the night; I will heal you and my son both -he is but three rows behind me.
Or I would.
But you have taken me far from my home, my herbs, my elders. Let me see to him. What does an ailing dragon need with two hundred men?
Oh Dragon, who swallows men and breaks them,
I admit defeat. I will cast myself into the ocean when next the sun kisses my face.
Or I would.
But your servants grow weaker; they no longer laugh and sing as they go about their business on your back. Their faces grow evermore pale, and the ancestors have whispered to me and placed a dream in my belly.
Oh Dragon, whose heart is decked with tiny flames that dance behind glass,
I will bury my son. He no longer answers my calls, nor do any others who share my tongue.
Or I would.
But I fear I my strength will fail me before I can. My spirit flags with each passing day, and the man whose arm is chained to mine has begun to rot.
Oh Dragon, who has taken my son from me,
I will speak to your servants and ask them to see reason; it will be their last chance.
Or I would.
But I still hear the screams of our wives and sons and daughters that continued after they were dragged out of sight. Your men do not realize that we have learned your tongue. They are as foolish as you.
Oh Dragon, who has consumed my son and my heart with him,
Your servants say we are nearing Cuba. I will kiss the Earth when I touch her next and savor the grass between my fingers..
Or I would.
But my brothers and I are of one accord.
You and your men will never see land again.
Oh Dragon, littered with the bodies of the dead and dying, whose boards groan under growing flame,
I will tell my ancestors of you.
Or I would.
But I will not meet my father and his father in the next life. I will not run and hunt on the plains eternal with them. For I will die far from home, far from our sacred lands, and our rites of life, of love, and of death. But so will you.
Oh Dragon, herald of Èshu himself, you mindless god of rage and hate, whose final journey ends today,
I will offer death rites to your servants that we have killed.
Or I would.
If we had not thrown them all overboard, as they did my son, and my brothers that did not live to see you burn.
The fire we lit in your belly rages on, and we will die smiling, standing on your back.
Because we have overcome you.
Oh Dragon, that spirits men across the Sea
Rest Eternal in her depths
With my Brothers and Me.
For the fathers and mothers
sons and daughters
brothers and sisters
who did not survive
the middle passage
Barbarian's Prayer
July 27th, 2024
What is good in life?
To crush your enemies,
To see them driven before you, and
to hear the lamentations of their loved ones.
What is better in life?
To lay hands on the intangible,
Floating around in the ether and
wrestling it into reality
To cleave to the imperceptible
and bend it from formlessness
Into a thing of substance and beauty
What is good in life?
To reach and grasp the sun.
To hold it in your hands.
To see yourself and your loved ones in it.
In God.
To raise a glass with loved ones
To life, and love, and health,
And to the end of the world.
Quarintime
April 23, 2020
Fire mixed with blood is
an old, fast-fading pipe dream;
Breathing suffices now.
Kaptial
March 31, 2023
The still, midnight soundscape is pierced by the screech of whetstone on honed steel. Sparks dance across the warm soil, turning the yellow firelight white for a heartbeat. The hunched figure is statuesque but appears a roiling specter of soiled iron, covered in stubborn shadows that cling to form as they wrestle with the dancing yellows and reds of the pit-fire dying nearby.
Statuesque save for the loud, well-practiced ritual whose sound is unmistakable to similarly experienced professionals. The sound of a loud conscience's guilty hands seeking absolution in monotony, attempting to strike blood from steel and soul alike. The sound of the wicked seeking rest that will never come. The sound of a fool's errand.
"I was doing what I had to do to survive"
Another stroke. Another screech, another deluge of sparks. Another memory pushed away, into the dark recesses of business as usual, taking the crouched traveler one step closer to blissful forgetfulness, however temporary it may be. They'd lost count somewhere after two hundred perfect executions, fingers flexing and wrist coiling ever so slightly at the fuller to compensate for cosmetic imperfections that came with the blade; a smooth movement each time.
They adjust their position ever so slightly, releasing a breath that sounds suspiciously like a sigh. A practiced flick turns the blade to begin work on the back edge.
Another stroke. Sparks dance as the stone begins to sing and the smooth screech ends midway as the ceramic edge catches an unfamiliar notch in the blade. A token of failure from morning past. The wages of a sloppy backswing with hasty edge alignment; blade meeting bone and chipping as it skittered away from its mark. Unnecessary suffering. A mercy kill. Another voice crying out for quarter, repeating endlessly, to join the nightly din.
"If I hadn't, someone else would have."
They managed to avoid eye contact as their victim failed to avoid the heart-seeking plunge. This new specter will be faceless, at least. The realization is enough to draw a mirthless chuckle from cracked lips.
Another stroke; this one adjusted to perfection on the fly, as any professional's work would be. The first of a hundred more perfectly aligned passes, with echoing rasp and shower of sparks to match. Their eyes follow an ember as it dances its way to a small satchel of leather, sagging with the weight of the worth of a dozen human souls. Their grandmother was a scholar and the thought of what her horrified face would look like if she knew is strangled and discarded, but not before the damage was done.
Another stroke. Or, the beginning of one. A deep breath. A long, hard blink. Another sharp inhalation, held for two-score heartbeats and released over four.
"I'm just trying to survive.", they whisper to themselves in the darkness. A single bead of moisture carves a salty path in the dirt of their ashen face, past sunken crow's feet and around teeth gritted in apparent agony. Others begin to well and flow.
"Them or me, This is the only way."
The flames flicker out.
A sound like choking sobs is swallowed by the wind.
The air smells of blood and lies.
Iron Princess
March 23, 2020
I can't love you if
You won't remove your armor;
I want to see you.
Sol; Luna
Yea
though I walk through the valley of the shadow of
Life
I stop in the quiet places, away from the sun, and search for your face in the sky.
I have held the sun in my hands
I have wrapped my fingers around her neck and twisted
And laughed as She smiled back at me.
But you, Luna;
You do not cause me to shield my eyes
Because your eyes are locked on mine
I have run, danced, and fucked my way across the plains with the sun beating on my shoulders
But tonight Luna, I sing a gentle song from the back of my throat.
To you.
To the promise of cool rain
To the gentle glow that outlines our bodies as we kiss and bite and suck and thrust our way to the sunrise we never saw coming.
Give to Caesar what is his and give to God what is God's?
Well Sol, my body is yours. Always has been. Likely always will be. But yours alone no longer
And to you, Luna, my heart
Thuds against my chest, beyond the coquis and confused roosters of the night.
Past the quiet whispers and sacred moans, the rustling of sheets and truths better left unspoken but not,
There you are, holding my face in your hands, not quite radiant but magnificent all the same
Lighting up the whole night.
Blue Chair Bay Dragon
April 23, 2020
Blue Chair; Bay Dragon
An old bay dragon lives on the beach
He despises his neighbors
He loathes his children.
He destroys and kills and eats.
But he loves this bay
And the blue chair he brought there
Because they belong to him.
This beach is his
This old bay dragon doesn't
Have many neighbors left.
He swallowed them up
Or drove them off
Or waited for them to die and
Stole the land
From their children.
For this dragon is wise.
He has done this before.
And this beach is his.
The old bay dragon
Lords over a wyrmcult
Brimming with
Frothing barbaric lunatics
That swarm over the land like locusts
Following their pied piper.
Hoping to become dragons themselves someday
They love and worship an old dragon that
Does not even know their name.
But this is fine.
They have done this before.
Everything is fine.
Because this beach is theirs.
Bay dragons do not breathe ice.
They fancy themselves benevolent saviors but
They breathe pestilence and despair.
They believe themselves innovative visionaries
But in truth they have one thing;
They possess the unique ability
To erase history
Cultures
Traditions
Stories
People
Reality itself.
And replace them with their own:
With those of their cult.
That is how
This beach is theirs.
Dragons can live for centuries on the
Lifeblood
And the land
And the dreams
Of those they erase
And this dragon is a glutton.
But this is fine.
We have done this before
Because
This beach is ours.
There will be casualties, make no mistake;
Friendships will be sundered. Money will be lost.
But idols will be torn down regardless
My grandmother is buried on this land.
And her father before her.
And his mother before him.
They scream into my heart
That they will not be silent
That I bahn yah.
That This beach is mine.
Slaughtering dragons
Is simple, but not easy.
Fire is needed.
Rum Say Hello
March 27th, 2020
I swear to drunk I'm
Not God but I love you miss;
Rum break mi shame box
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shame box: (n) an internal organ present in most humans. Primarily functions to protect against embarrassment. Known to malfunction or shut down completely when exposed to large quantities of alcohol.
Chunks of Hope
November 30, 2019
Hope is
Hope gives
Hope believes
Hope sustains
Hope is.
Hope is a fragile thing.
A beautiful, delicate, almost indescribable thing.
It is coaxed from ashes and withers without water and care.
It shatters in singular moments and takes entire lives, dreams, movements, and our most precious moments with it to the abyss as it goes.
Like the patterns of a snowflake, a single touch can spell disaster and the river of life takes what's left to to Styx to circle the drain for the rest of not-so-happily ever after.
But to the ones brave and foolish enough,
Hope is.
Hope is the vision of clear water before the one drowning in a sea of sand, pushing forward as they're called insane by those too weary and fearful to follow their lead.
Hope is the thing that heaves weary, broken bodies out of beds that they deserve, and ancestors know they desire, and into the storm that we have begrudgingly come to call home.
Hope is the thing that defies logic, circumstance, reason. It drives the madfolk toward the invisible horizon and imbues them with this intoxicating, insufferable, absolutely inescapable marriage between love of life in all her forms and reckless fucking abandon;
It makes battle-hardened champions of cowards and infiltrates even the stoniest hearts, turning blue blood red and giving life where there is none.
A man much older than me once said that fairy tales are more than true because they tell us that dragons can be killed.
Well tonight I stand on his shoulders and scream that hope is how we slay the dragons
Hope is how we heal our islands
Hope is the tie that binds us together
And as our enemies are broken to pieces on the reef called revolution,
Hope is the tide that we will ride to shore.